through my work I am trying to find a way of locating myself. it has been the hardest thing to do since leaving full time employment. I know what I am interested in, so I guess that is a start, but trying to find a context, to locate it, that is quite another. it helps to some extent having grown up in a small village. I know what a real community is - or do I. I know how it made me feel, I am not sure I understood what made it tick. but then I was very small.
It is incredibly hard to find a way of locating yourself. It requires a lot of soul searching, defining your values, working out why you need it, what you need.
I am in what some might consider to be an envious position. I do not have a contract for work, I don't have my time regulated by anyone but myself. I don't even have my own family. I have no-one to direct my time or take me into contexts or social groups of their own making. I have to shape and define my own sense of place.
It is from this luxurious, but quite tricky blank page, that you begin to get some sense of what directs people to become attached to religion, to clubs, to gangs, to anything really that allows you to find a way of being, of knowing, of existing.
in the following link ideas and thoughts on what makes a community, Macmurray argues that we only fulfill our personal nature through personal relationships, that is how we discover ourselves.
Aristotle stated, "without a fully active role in community life one could not hope to become a healthy human being." Within a responsible relationship in a community "genuine freedom leads to a personality which is quietly confident; fully sensitive to others but not egocentric in petty and aggressive ways."18
Without a context, a connection of a part of ourselves we become isolated, closed and in no position to grow into rounded human beings. For this to be possible it is important for us all to recognise the important part we can all play in opening ourselves up to welcoming people into our communities, to recognise that who we are and what we do is as important to us as it is to others. To make time to look out for and create a dialogue with those who have found us, allowing them to explore freely for themselves the possibilities for them to develop into the healthy human being that they need to be.
It seems that this is a topic that I keep coming back to and a reason for my next project in the place that I live. I value the sense of community that is created by the place that I live in, although I make my own choices about how to take part and contribute. It is important to me to recognise the independence of people and organisations and hence why I struggle tremendously with the corporate world that dictates the agenda, the reason I ended up leaving. It is the attitudes of successful business that often goes against the ability of us all to become healthy human beings in a community. they talk a lot about it, demonstrate it to a certain extent but miss the point on so many levels. An example recently: I was politely told by the manager of a chain that has arrived in the high street that I could not photograph their shop front and that I had to get permission from their head office. The shop front has become a part of the community that I live in, I see it everyday as I pass on the bus. It is an unremarkable shop front. To engage in a community it seems - I have to have permission, I have to be invited, selected, chosen. That cannont be right. Sometimes we should just throw away the rule book, our predjudices, and try to understand what brings someone to us, being more open to new possibilities and allowing people the space to develop and grow.
'It is community that brings together autonomous individuals who have freely chosen a conscious set of values
and goals. They have not been coerced but have come together naturally,
and largely stay together. The key would seem to be common values, and
a task to do'.